I'm sorry you're hurting, Hope. I really wish you could find a T with good boundaries to teach you to have better boundaries and healthier relationships. Maybe now you'll try a female T? It probably won't be as intimate as a relationship with a male T, but it could be a better fit for you. Remember, therapy is about change. You also have to work towards that change. If you don't want to or aren't willing to change, then therapy might not be right for you. If you're just looking for support, maybe try finding a support group?

As far as the pharmacist, you knew he probably wouldn't accept your friend request. There are so many reasons why. Logically, you know this even though it hurts emotionally. He has set his boundaries with you. You are a client at this point, not a friend. You have to respect that.