I read about everyone's attachment issues and I wonder what the heck is wrong with me. I am an only child who experienced multiple kinds of abuse from an early age from both parents. As a result I mainly tried to avoid everyone including my paternal grandparents who lived on the same property. (There was abuse from them as well) Anyway, I always felt so alone dealing with my inner pain and misery. It was never safe to attach to anyone and I mainly raised myself. I was alone much of the time as the adults were all working at the family business. I was required to work there as well from the age of 10 on.
My question is, why do I have absolutely NO attachment feelings to anyone including my therapist. Don't get me wrong, it is not that I want to have this problem as I read how so many here suffer from it but I just wonder if there is something wrong with me that I have no desire to attach to anyone. I guess I wonder, if you were abused by your parents when you were young why on earth would you miss the attachment with them or why would you want your T to take their place? I am totally clueless on this subject. Any ideas or explanations would be appreciated because I feel like I am seriously broken.