I'm also curious about my T's other patients. I wonder if they are easier to deal with than I am. I don't usually feel jealous. The only times I've felt a tiny bit of jealous is if he has another patient right before me and they run over. And then I'm like, why is he still with them when I'm out here waiting?! I know it's silly. He runs over with me too sometimes.

Ah, and I want to know everything about my therapist! I don't need to idealize him. I want him to be real. His realness and imperfections make me feel closer to him.