I have held forth -- in excruciating detail -- to her on what exactly I think she thinks about her other clients (both in general terms and about specific other clients) vis-a-vis me (based on what I saw her doing for them vs. me).

To the point that it became a sore topic -- for her (not me -- I could go on about it until kingdom come).

The whole thing blew up when she ended up telling me the clinical reason for her behavior towards other client(s) -- I don't think she told me the truth though. Think she mostly told me that to shut me up.

She has attributed my going on about it (rightly, I'll say) to my long-standing -- and as yet, unresolved -- mommy issues.

I have a sneaking suspicion that she has made (at least temporary, if not permanent-ish) certain changes to her schedule so that I'll quit holding forth about it (or more specifically, I don't run into certain other clients of hers) but like I said, since it became a sore topic, we haven't discussed it.

I am rather tempted to bring it up -- my whole point was that I didn't need her to change her behavior in any way (towards me or other people) but that I needed her to honestly discuss the whys and wherefores. But, after going round and round over it rather endlessly, she couldn't seem to do it or even understand what I was getting at and I just got even more frustrated.

At some point, after I sort of threw in the towel, she came up with this bizarre thing of having heard on the radio about implicit bias but not implicit bias as one typically understands it (in terms of being biased about race, sexuality etc) -- however, that's another long story and I shan't get into it mostly coz, thinking about her reasoning (or what seemed like the utter and total lack of it) still makes my head spin.

ETA: Oh, I forgot to add -- I truly couldn't care less if other clients have more pressing issues or she's more fascinated by them etc. What I would like for her to do (as I've endlessly explained to her) is for her to be really really really really honest about what she feels about me (including all the ugly stuff) -- something it seems she's totally unwilling to do. And, my insistence that she clearly has a complex set of feelings towards me based on her behavior towards me vs. other clients, didn't seem to make a dent on her. At all. Oh well.