Thanks for all of the responses of support and things to think about.

I did get a few resolutions to some of my problems earlier (although not reallly with T).

I apologized to the pharmacist for the friend request and he told me not to worry about it. The reason it hurts is because I care about him deeply but it's just a fantasy, I know the reality.

I don't know what the next step is.

Oh, good news! I did get a few of my medications filled earlier and I'm thankful.