Here's something I've done when I start to meltdown from feeling pressured to do something I don't want to do. I know that feeling of growing anxiety. I know even if at the end of the day you stay home from the party, given the build up and anxiety.... you will likely feel worse not better for staying home or going. I hope you can level before then so that you make the best choice for you. Not stress induced.

I came up with this approach to your situation. I give myself permission to decline an invitation to do something. That's the first key. It's OK to say 'no thank you'. If I don't decline immediately I always buy some time to think about the invitation. But the first sign of stressing about it and I make the decision to decline. I do this knowing I have the option of changing my mind if, when the time comes I'm up for the party after all.

If I've committed to something and start to have second thoughts then I will make the decision right away to decline but keep it to myself for a couple of days or more. I will take the pressure off myself so I don't sabbotage my options by getting overwhelmed with stress and obsessing about the stress and getting sicker ever step of the way. I get ride of the stressor without shutting out my options. So far I've had some good success with it. Even on ocassion where I couldn't decline I managed to get through it knowing it would be over soon enough. Participating was like currency for future declines. lol. Keep the power in your own hands Jenny. That may be the root of your battle. Hold on to your power no matter what.

I really hope you feel better soon Jenny.