I am sorry you are struggling--I recommend avoiding triggers as much as you can--there are ways you can do this. While there are adult movies and books I like--I have always read mostly children's books and classics--I have found it to be some of the highest quality literature out there. I find some of the sex on TV to be rather shallow. Having read the reviews about some movies such as Antichrist--there are some really disturbing movies out there--you have to take precautions and stay away from them. It is wise for nearly everyone to do this. I prefer many of the family type love stories like Parent Trap and Daddy's Home(Will Ferrell--I think he is so funny ) even though my children are all grown up. People like Queen Latifah and Jackie Chan tend to handle sex in a way I enjoy. If you do your research, you can find things out there that are your speed. When my husband has the Justice channel on--I walk out. Both H and I like Deadliest Catch, did you know this is one of the most watched shows by males and there is no sex? We also both like nature shows. So perhaps there is hope you can find something you both like. Don't watch anything that makes you uncomfortable--your time is to valuable!!!!