Thanks for your replies freewill and mandyfins, and rest assured that I'm very impressed by your stories. Honestly, I sincerely doubt that I'd still be alive today if I didn't feel a strong sense of obligation (that's not the word I'm looking for, but the right one is escaping me right now) to my parents for being so unwaveringly supportive through this whole thing.

I think this is just a matter of that defining principle of life: To thine own self be true. While you guys are no doubt suffering excruciating pain despite the fact that you did nothing wrong, you seem to have come to a sort of tenuous peace with your condition. How you came to this is beyond me, but I just don't think that sort of compromise is going to come to me. I firmly believe that I was put here to do something big, I can't do big things like this.

I have a question: What's it like for you guys when you get triggered? I've heard that what I experience when I'm triggered is pretty bizarre, but I've never actually heard what other people's triggered episodes are like.