Avoidance...I hear you. Sometimes I wish I could avoid myself It's good that you realize what you are doing..that's progress. Keep in mind that life is frequently 2 steps forward and 1 step back....or maybe 3 steps back.

Try not to beat yourself up about this. Sometimes it's ok to say "today I can't handle it." That's self care. If it turns into a prolonged episode then you might want to look at it.