I've left an online mental health forum, I will not mention which one, because it was far too toxic for me and I am left with uneasy and bad feelings now.

The site owner is beyond abusive to members, the members themselves often are abusive, mean and way out of line and even though the site is moderated, the restrictions applied are often unfair and do not match the offending party's wrongdoing (depending on which moderator responds). I find that one moderator is particularly strict, while others are loosey goosey and allow poor behaviors to go unchecked.

The reason why I make this post is I have negative residual feelings and resentment for the unfairness and toxicity of the site. I didn't know where to post this exactly...

I ran into many members who had treated me poorly, even though I provided kindness, compassion and support to many on there. I was always nice to everyone and didn't deserve the poor treatment I received. This is often the case for me IRL, too.

One member, a supposed friend of mine, made a very mean comment and judgement towards me, which seemed passive aggressive in nature and seemed to come out of nowhere. This was the final straw that caused me to leave, and now I can see that she is stalking my profile on there, checking it nearly every day. All I ever did was support her in every way, yet when I really needed her support during my breakup, I feel she kind of resented it. The friendship was one-sided, with me providing most of the support. I was really offended and hurt by her comment.

This is perhaps the last incident that occurred that has left me feeling negative, sad and just well.... tarnished in a way. The toxicity won't leave me.

I know this will pass in time, but has anyone else had a negative experience on a mental health forum and feel practically traumatized by it? Would love to hear people's thoughts and/or experiences.

Thank you so much for reading, and in advance, for your kind support.