It's definitely not a pleasant feeling. I suppose one idea that comes forward as a way to deal with those questions and the others that I can't define is to escape. Escape. But, I don't know how to...I've tried many things; I'm looking for ways out, yet I am trapped. Maybe answering those questions that I can give body to through defining them would present an exit? I don't know...

The only thing that I do know is that I need to get out. I'm reminded of the scene from the original Matrix movie when Agent Smith is interrogating Morpheus; Smith takes his earbud out and strongly outlines and emphasizes his desire to escape.