Can I hold on tonight without hurting or will I break? Something inside tells me I cannot stop but I am trying to fight. I feel afraid, but then who cares or knows? It does not matter, not tonight. I do not know about tomorrow, but not tonight. I cry within--hiding the pain to the outside so no one knows. I guess it is not important--no one has to know. It only hurts for the moment--but it relieves for awhile--tells me I am the cause of the pain and gives me something to feel other than what I am feeling. If I can make it my fault--then it is me. They always said it was my fault--???????is it???????

cami