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Originally Posted by Keyplayer
HI JB1994,
Believe me , I know exactly what you are feeling , I too fear losing my T before I am better.
To me it would cause to fall into a more depressed state than I am already , one that might require meds.
Right now I am finding help with just talking and I don`t think I need any meds ( time will tell ).
I am not a therapist or doctor , but if you are or have to be on meds , I personally think the old fashion tricyclic antidepressants work the best , but not for longer than say 18 months max. After that they won`t hurt you they just stop working.
SSRI`s tend to have many side effects IMO , some folks have success with those , I did not.
I thats why I don`t want to be in place that would require meds , because most doc`s like SSRI`s for some reason 
I am find therapy is like walking in the middle of a busy highway , you don`t know if to go right or left , without getting squished !! ( make any sense ? )
Anyway , I hear you , and feel for you , just remember what ever happens with your T , you have a whole community of fantastic people here to help. 
Take care & be well 
KP  |
Thank you for this, KP. I'm actually on a pretty good combo of meds right now and I don't know where I'd be without them. It's kinda of funny because I feel pretty dependent on those too... Whenever my psych suggests trying something new or making any modifications I get all panicky because my depression is unbearable. I'm happy for you that talking/therapy has been helping you. And if you ever end up giving meds a try, they can be a real benefit as well. I've noticed that meds kind of balance me out a bit, so that I can dig deeper in my therapy without getting lost in all the pain therapy can stir up. And lastly, thanks again for your kind words and listening to my struggle. I'm really very scared. I just got in a fight with my mom tonight which makes me wish all the more T was my mom. And then I panic because I remember she can leave and disappear at any moment.