This makes me so saddened to read. Therapy is about a safe space for someone who needs safety, and it is a grievous violation of trust, trust as in person to person but also as in "trustee", to scare a client to this degree. I don't know you, but tears welled up in my eyes reading your post. I know it is scary to leave or change T's, but I hope today this very day you can make an appointment with a trauma T to talk about this.