Thank you all for answering and welcoming me. It's going to be so nice to have someone to talk to. I have no friends because I quit everything when I get depressed and people just don't like me. I can get along with everyone but long term I think they just don't understand how I can act so different from one day to the next(or one week or month etc.).

I am still not depressed and all of my other switches lately were much faster than this(I spent a week depressed before this most recent upswing on bupropion and had lots on the other meds) so I feel like I should be ok for now. I slept 2hrs Friday night and 7hrs last night so it is evening out to be enough sleep anyways. I was hoping someone would say it sounds like I'm just happy and probably not even bipolar at all. Looks like that isn't going to happen but I had hope haha.

I wish I felt like I could work with my pdoc but I feel like no one cares if I am still depressed they only care if I am too far up. Even my husband said maybe it would be better if I was depressed instead Pdoc said he would try a different med to stabilize my mood if the swings continued but he said they usually try quetiapine first because it doesn't require any blood tests or monitoring. So basically they just want to do whatever is easiest and that doesn't give me any faith that I will get any real help. He only books me in every 12 weeks and I see a counselor and get her to move my appointment up when things get really bad. He probably knew I was lying about not having anything else to tell him anyway lol. I am just so confused about how to get help without them pushing me too far down again.

I just feel desperate to stay away from the depression, I REALLY enjoy life right now(well at least the parts I want to enjoy and I just ignore the rest, like most responsibilities). I am hoping I can stay like this for as long as possible, I don't feel that there is any risk of mania and I deserve to be happy at least for a while.