There plenty of hope for love . Keep in mind that many people don't have a parents loving relationship to guide them. You are setting yourself up for failure if you continue to believe that your emotional health is tied up in whether or not your paerents are getting along. I am basing this warning on other posts you've made about your parents.

My mother has 6 children by 6 different men and is a raging alcoholic and was sexually abused as a child. If I lived my life based on her guidance or "example" I would be probably be dead by now

I did a lot of work on my issues caused by childhood neglect and abuse. I've grown a lot, worked through pain, and for the most part have come out the other side. I've been in a loving supportive relationship with my husband for 14 years now. I'm not saying there not time soon when I have flashbacks or regress into self defeating behaviors, but I'm able to work through it, forgive myself and get back on track.

Long story short...love is possible. PLease....Stop looking for reasons/excuses why it's impossible for you and take charge of your own emotional health.