I thought your venting was beautiful, I like all your complex emotions and thoughts, the depths and ways they dance. Now, I would like to know, what is going on in your daily life, if we can help you with that part. Recently, I was tossing and turning, and thought it would be the night I actually went mad. I made it through the night, and the emotion of anger came to me. Here I was thinking I was being all selfless and sweet. And under the anger, was the thought that I hadn't been enough to help my son ask for help in his addiction, and behind that was facing he had never felt me there loving him. From now on, I am going to admit what I'm angry about and what I am secretly wishing for.