I am frustrated with something and angry.

Before I had surgery, months before, a year before I was put on the wait list, before that, I started to deal with something. I kept it to myself and then I mentioned it to the surgeon and he decided to investigate while I was under (I had surgery 16 months ago). He looked at my bladder and found nothing worrisome. He said my bladder was in perfect health. Of course I was left in confusion.

I was told let things die down and it will go back to normal. I waited.

Having pain after urinating and being tested many times for infection, blood, etc., in urine turned up with no answers but, "your urine is fine." being left with, why is this happening to me. It was the pain at first, then came when I am at the toilet pulling my pants down I would start to pee, then out and about I would pass urine, wetting my underwear and pants. Then causing my pants to smell.

I complained to the point I cried after being told to wait another couple of weeks. I demanded a specialist. I got the appointment, he basically handed me pills that elderly take to control their bladder function. I took the pills and took over a week to do a slight change for me so the doctor increased it to the maximum amount which helped more. I still had some issues on it but it was minor, the pain after urination stopped but the leakage still occurred (not as often) which wasn't a huge deal but still upsetting.

When I forget to take the medication, well, I go back to where I was before. I forgot to take it and I quickly started to have no control of my bladder, I feel it full when it's not and pee dribble out soaking myself and I am not peeing.

I was told I have bladder spasms. And the specialist said he wouldn't look into my bladder as a surgeon did and found it was normal. This specialist pointed towards that I have stage 1 Endo and it is upsetting because it's more reproductive crap that someone is saying is the cause. To me it doesn't feel this way.

I always, plan my trips if I am able to last before needing a washroom and I can't make it, sometimes, 10 minutes after I emptied my bladder. I dread going out but I do anyways, I wear black pants so it wouldn't show, but I can smell it and I always wonder if others can. When I am home, I always change my underwear. I am at the point in buying senior pads and maybe weigh it before and after to see how much I am peeing.

I am at a loss.

I am calling the specialist tomorrow to schedule an appointment for more testing because this isn't normal for someone in her early-mid-20s.

Is there a test for this sorta thing? Nobody can find anything. No bladder infection, kidneys are fine, ultra sounds are good, so fourth. Is there a test they can do for this issue? Something that will give answers.