I believe my mood is stable and I am thinking clearly.

That is helpful because I am sad and scared about real circumstances in my life that could lead to me being in an Indian Prison and/or homeless and stranded in India.

This is regarding my overstaying a visa here. I was promised by family of the woman I came to wed that it would be taken care of before my original visa expired. Overstaying is very serious in India, I recently found out. I just cannot leave. They will detain me for days or weeks and fine me or jail me.

I am told by my fiance I am ok as long as I am "with them". In the meantime I doubt highly that I want to be with her. It is a matter of compatibility. I also have a very strong feeling of distrust concerning her.

I may be trying hard to make this work because: A) I have the exit visa problem. I do not want to be homeless and/or in Jail for up to 5 years. B) I have no sure place to go once I leave. C) My fiance and her family could turn on me and make things much worse than the worse I currently foresee.

(BTW, I have known her for almost 4 years, but just met her in person this last May. If I knew what I know now, I would have never come here)

One thing I know: I must settle this within the next week. If I find that my relationship is hopeless I will call the American Consular and take it from there.

As far as I know, I have no help from anybody on the planet. I feel all alone in this mess I got myself into. I just have to keep on trying and make peace with the worse possible consequences. Of course even if I escape jail and homelessness on the street in a foreign country, I will still have no home and I will be all alone.

I hope you all are safe and well.

Thanks & Hugs