Sounds like you had a childhood that was beyond horrible.
Please seek help with a therapist who is familiar with PTSD and childhood abuse.
YES it is posssible to live a happy life !!!!! It's going to take some HARD work on your part. And many times it just won't seem fair that you have to work through all the pain and crap that comes with trying to heal.
But it's not only possible but worth it.
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Eat a live frog for breakfast every morning and nothing worse can happen to you that day!
"Ask yourself whether the dream of heaven and greatness should be left waiting for us in our graves - or whether it should be ours here and now and on this earth.” Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged
Bipolar type 2 rapid cycling DX 2013 -
Seroquel 100
Celexa 20 mg
Xanax .5 mg prn
Modafanil 100 mg
