Our office has been renovated recently, and they didn't do it part by part, but the whole office complex at once. There was so much noise and calamity, with dust everywhere and the smell of new paint was all sickening.

Most of all, my (and several others) salary has been delayed for weeks, and this has been going for several months now. I would have to take money from credit card and now having to pay interest, late charges, stamp duty for OD and all that because of this. I'm quite irritated at the whole thing. I'm at the verge of quitting this. When I asked about the salary, they said that they will complete it by the end of the week (Friday).

This whole thing makes me feel like I'm not doing well at work, while some coordinators and colleagues telling me to slow down and not to burn out. I'm very fast at work, and according to my calculations, my productivity is between 400 to 500% compared to peers. I can work myself to drop dead. I could be such a workaholic at times, specially when there is more stress like this. I'm addicted to drown my stress on more work, and something like this lead to my most recent episode/meltdown.

So I looked at other jobs. I have over 10 years of experience, but not completed a degree, so I have less confidence on getting a good job. I have contacts, and have showcased my skills at competitions, so there is a chance. For my level of expertise, I cannot start from zero in a new place. I have to get on a senior level if changing the job. When I was trying to move to another job, my boss raised my salary to keep me. But they are delaying it now. I feel so effed up right now. There is no motivation left to do anything there.