My mom is in the hospital, so I went to see her by mid-day. She was sedated, and all vitals were in normal range. My daughter's birthday is just next weekend, and I was planning to get her a Chromebook. I'm so sick and need to see my PDoc soon, and therapy and meds also cost.

Here: https://forums.psychcentral.com/mind...y-program.html
There are several more ****** situations I'm going through.

So, today, I went on a strike. I was feeling very bad. I'm trembling, and my mind is pulled apart by another internal conflict [I have suppressed all my emotions for my wife for over an year, and now those emotions are enraged]. In other words, I'm in Total ****.

I have effing responsibilities and I'm ironically too late and too early at the same time to quit on life.

So I had to take some Xanax, this time up-to 0.5mg (which for me is a lot). When they kicked in, I was feeling sooo good.