Hope you stick around. I really relate to your posts.

I opt out of partys too. Just don't feel sociable. I was invited to one yesterday. It would have been a good one for me to go to because I am in recovery and it was given by a person I liked from the N/A fellowship. I should go out and meet people, but I'm so depressed I just want to stay home. It's also cold here and I hate to go out in the cold.

I look at New Year's Eve as just another day. I stay home and do whatever I want. This might sound silly, but I started coloring velvet posters. It keeps my mind focused. It's not racing with negative thoughts. I also don't have to think to do it and I can have the TV on or music too.

I also don't like being on the road with the amateaur drinkers!

Take Care! Hopefully next year we will see some healing.