I am very glad you're here, H/T.
And I agree w/Shazerac & several others above: Don't care how much y'all do or do not love each other , HE DOES NOT GET TO DECIDE WHAT YOU "NEED" or "SHOULD" feel/not feel.
Jeez Louise.
That's neither helpful nor useful nor even frekin reasonable, imo. Nor (again imo) is it loving behaviour.
You are the one who gets to come to those decisions, in your own way and time. I think you're amazing.
xo
Chyialee, grrrrr