I'm very sorry to hear this, and I am sad that you've had a painful experience here and that you are hurting. But DO what you need to do and take care of yourself. You know exactly what you need to do, so do just that.... no qualms about it. Your mental health comes first and if this site is making you feel worse, by all means.... just take care of yourself, but I am sad to see you go. Many many big hugs and best wishes to you in your endeavors!!! (where's the hugs icon as I am writing this????)