I am the same way. I've been with my therapist for about 8 months and although I really like him and respect him and I like the fact that he is helping me. I actually don't like the fact that he's helping me. I don't want to have to rely on anybody. I wish I could just fix myself and I resent the fact that I need him to help me. I also go back and forth about wanting to quit therapy because I have that inner turmoil that I shouldn't rely on anybody. He said last session when we were discussing it that because of my past abuse I feel it's unacceptable to trust anybody and it is unacceptable to take the risk to rely on anybody.

Honestly the only reason I don't try to quit therapy is because I really need the last time slot of the day for work reasons and I don't want to lose that time slot in the event I can't handle it on my own and I need to go back to therapy. But I know I could quit tomorrow and although I would miss him or rather I would miss the help he provides me I would be fine with it. Like I said no attachment I would not be devastated at all. If I wasn't so damn messed up mentally with all of my issues I would quit in a heartbeat.