Full blown mania is something I never want to go through again. Hypomania is ok. However, deep depression (like the one I have just had) is a hell on its own. Then there are the even more hellish mixed episodes – they are the worst.

Basically, it is so difficult to choose one over the other. Right now I would choose mania, but I just had a bad depressive episode. After a bad manic episode I would choose depression. How about stable? I choose stable.