Support....eh kind of. My parents as much as they are capable of emotionally.
They would take care of my children if I went IP but with one son senior year and about do his driving exam and the other one in Football which is a very taxing sport schedule wise I cannot go. And I promised myself I would never go back anyway.
I think I'm going with the emergency pdoc appointment. I don't know what the hell to go on. I'm only on klonopin which is not helping in the least. I am in ruins inside my mind and body and I'm scared to be near ppl (like at football practice ) because I am waaaay on the urge of flipping out randomly and they cannot see me like that.

I don't know how how how I could believe it finally had gone away. I have had this a long time. I have been on this board a long time. I know what the literature says. But I had hoped I had somehow "grown out of it"
thx for listening. I have no one I can truly admit all this too. They obviously see my mood drastically has changed but the inner thoughts, the turmoil and the SI would be too much for them.