major confession------I am interested in PREVENTION and some RECOVERY....
what am I talking about....

prevention and recovery work is mostly up to me...
it has taken me 86 years to find this out...
I always thought that my psych drugs and therapists would do the job...
I was mistaken...it has been up to me...and it still is up to me....
I do not have a depressive problem that I can do nothing about...
I need to continue working on not going downhill...
my BEHAVIOR one way or the other will probably make a difference..

if I stop moving around/stop eating healthy/drink more booze and more sugar
I will probably start going downhill again...to that hellhole breakdown...

I love quick fixes but I have found they don't last....benzos really worked but it didn't fix my
major problems...I just kicked my problems down the road..but I am still here...
please don't anybody kill yourselves over all the s$$t we have to put up with...I am still here for a little while...