I'm back going to meetings again. When I get paranoid it's hard for me to sit through meetings, or to share. I have a quite a few 24 hours of sobriety, so I don't get the urge to drink, but I know meetings help me with my sobriety as well as my mental health. Isolating is a bad space for me, & if I do it too long I wind up in bad mental spaces. The past few years, I've made an attempt to form more friendships in the program to prevent me from disappearing so easily. While I've shared that I have bipolar disorder & disappear sometimes, my AA friends call me to encourage me along. AA is about more than getting sober...It's sometimes like learning to live again.