I have struggled with this since childhood. Repressed it successfully for years but I have found it waxes and wanes. Triggers have set what I thought was remission into a full blown cycle. I was assigned male at birth but throughout my childhood and teen age years I was either labeled girlie or sissy and especially during early adolescents I felt the need to prove my sexuality even though I was not really sure myself....to not experience this is to not appreciate the loneliness and despair that goes with it