Mine are medical....I have a strong drive to be fully resuscitated....I know it's wrong and disgusting but this has been replayed over and over for as long as I can remember....it started in childhood and unfortunately has followed me ever since. I also have OCD which carries a high level of guilt and apprehension. To make it evern more distressing is when I have to be certified in COR and AED training....I get nauscious dizzy etc and then later on I fantasize about it....how can I get this to stop it's ruining my life. It it's one of those things you really don't tell too many people about