In reality, this world can be a very painful place. Yet, we are also offered moments (sometimes seasons) of experiencing the beauty and the joy.
As Jensensitive has encouraged you to do, please look into alternatives for staying on your meds while awaiting insurance coverage.
I think we all wonder (and often doubt) whether others will ever accept us as we are, accepting us unconditionally. When I think about whether others accept me as I am, I find I have to ask myself if I accept others in this way?
It feels quite amazing and very "freeing" to feel accepted as we are. I have many, many faults; yet, when I take time to be genuinely myself, taking that risk with "safe" people, I find I am usually accepted as I am.
Please don't fall into the trap of totally isolating.

Studies show "isolation" affects us in ways which can cause even further isolation.
I am so glad you'd felt you could reach out and be yourself here!
Please let us know how you are doing?

WC