I apologize if this is a duplicate post. I can identify with most of what you are saying. I was assigned male at birth despite all indicators I was to be a girl. I have never really felt comfortable with my body and have had some strong feminine traits; some personality wise some possible physical and some perception wise. I have never cross dressed or anything like that but I did have long hair for years and I did indulge in a navel piercing on my 22nd birthday which screams feminine side. I truly buy into childhood experiences can shape or distort our perception of our gender. They say gender is fluid and there have been times where I fell like a guy the way society believes we should, times I feel like a femm, times I feel like a female. Sometimes I can be in remission so to speak and some external stimuli triggers these dysphoric feelings all over again and the cycle is once again set in motion. I'm just glad I'm not alone on this as I have felt so for most of my life. Hope you can find inner peace with yourself