I just left my T a phone message asking her to have me check in at the beginning of appointments from now on because I am not going to meetings where it is asked/tracked. So I want to make sure I am accountable to someone that I have no reason to lie to. I knew I had this as an issue, so I looked for expertise in mood disorders and substance abuse. Interestingly enough, she said the same thing about coping skills; she thinks if I have better coping skills for my mood swings (bipolar), then the substance abuse will not be a problem. She is not addressing it as a going forward issue right now. I am two and a half months clean and sober and not really having too many urges and the ones I have had were pretty easy to resist.