and I'm scared spitless. Some of you may remember that I have had the unusual experience of being sexually assaulted by a male pdoc. Well, this has made me seek out only female providers, of any kind.

I wouldn't be going at all except that my internist who prescribes my AD doesn't know how to prescribe psych meds and always asks me what I "want" in the way of meds. Well, long story short, I don't want to be my own prescriber. You've heard the saying a "man who has himself as an attorney has a fool for an attorney." Well, double that for a doctor!

My appt is on Friday with this guy. Should I tell him my history? It will just make him nervous and won't do anything for me? He'll most likely feel like keeping his door open so the receptionist can "verify" that all is kept very professional. Maybe he'll even think that his profession is beyond reproach and that I'm lying? I dunno...I remembered when I posted just a little of my experience here and it caused a riot. People just don't like to think that those in the helping profession can be unethical. I get it.

Maybe I should take somebody with me? But, then, it would have to be someone who knows everything about me and there isn't a person like that on the planet.

Any words of wisdom for me?
Much appreciated.
Okie