[QUOTE=UpDownAround;5814315]I just left my T a phone message asking her to have me check in at the beginning of appointments from now on because I am not going to meetings where it is asked/tracked. So I want to make sure I am accountable to someone that I have no reason to lie to. I knew I had this as an issue, so I looked for expertise in mood disorders and substance abuse. Interestingly enough, she said the same thing about coping skills; she thinks if I have better coping skills for my mood swings (bipolar), then the substance abuse will not be a problem. She is not addressing it as a going forward issue right now. I am two and a half months clean and sober and not really having too many urges and the ones I have had were pretty easy to resist.[

That is awesome congrats. We know I over drink in order to get rid of negative thoughts or I am really stressed. I can go periods of no alcohol then something gets triggered and I turn to alcohol. Right now the plan os not to never drink but go back to how I have been most of my adult life...a social drinker. This drinking to cope has only been am issues for about a year or so by not even steady at that.