Trying to piece together all that's happened and it's too much. I feel like it's not real like this is all some crazy dream I'm gonna wake up from. Only I am awake. The abuse never stops. I've left my abusive husband but we have a child together so he keeps on getting to abuse me and now her. She comes home with all kinds of bad things he's said about me, and I'm helpless to stop it. He will abuse her and it will hurt her as she grows up and I can't stop it. Only I can somehow counteract it with good words. I also have parents who put me down all the time. Never highlight my strengths. Just constantly put me down. Like I'm a failure as a human being. It's been this way since I was a little girl. Now I'm slowly figuring all this out and it's too much I cant understand why someone especially parents can do this. And it's only to me so they are aware of it. It's like they hate me and want to make me pay someway. Did they not want to have me? I just can't wrap my head around this. I was isolated from family cause they would speak bad about me. I had no friends cause my ex wouldn't allow it . Please I need some support