I'm in a kind of the same boat. But rationally I can look at it and say, the key to understanding and perspective is talking things through. I have difficulty talking with people offline, but this community is very supportive, and with time it's possible to unwrap and go through your problems one at a time (or sometimes all together), and somehow, at least for me, things, though still not brilliant, at least stop looking as catastrophic as previously. And fortunately you don't get abused or banned for bringing up issues that seem pathetic or trivial here, unlike on other forums.

...So, I hope you stick around.