I'm back and doing a bit better considering I don't long for death any more. It's been a rough week or so, but my T says that the statistics for emulation when one chooses to take his or her own life goes over 50% for the likelihood that the offspring will (at some future point) follow suit. Given this data, I am determined to avoid contributing to it and pushing my boys in that direction.

Though I am still not feeling great, I only have to endure until next week when I have ECT again. -I so wish meds worked better for me.

While I may not comment and respond to all of the struggles mentioned here, I read everything and you are all in my heart and on my mind as I go through the day.