((((jacq)))) ... i'm crushed and at the same time i support you... when i came back i considered that being here would re-arouse feelings i believed i had processed... that is what happened alright, but im still glad i came...

i think for me, sometimes its better to take a break and not process, sometimes we have to let settle what we've learned about ourselves and later, at another time in the future, we find that what we've torn loose and re-packed is still there, but in a better place... we keep repacking and repacking...

i will miss you...