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Desoxyn · Sep 13, 2017, 11:48 AM

Replying to your last post on roll call sz,

- I posted this in your addiction thread instead of roll call sz cuz the mods probably wont approve there and they like me to put triggers here too because what I talk about is too much idk. Roll call also moves too fast so you probably wont see the post not that my post even matters I'm just a person but because I've dealt with addiction of at least stimulants bringing me to my knees I'd like to help a little because it wont make it worse at least so it's worth helping someone out especially if they're apart of that roll call community we have there.

Possible trigger:

JunkDNA sounds like my psychologist. Probably doing the right thing they are idk.

I've been sober a little over a week now. Taking my Wellbutrin as prescribed.. Oh yeah I forgot to take it this morning.. I will now.. I plan keep the grass though for later that's about it..

I know my mounds of pretty much every drug with a heavy stimulant addiction including a fling with H is nothing as dangerous as a H addiction unless I defied the laws of uh death but you can do it! No dying..

My most important thing to say for you is that if you ever relapse, NEVER start with a moderate dose let alone a high dose that you were tolerant to no matter how much you want to with everything that is telling you to do it. That's how people die after taking too much somehow, more than they can handle. I saw it on addiction shows and everything that experts say in how people die from the drug. I've taken small doses of #H4 and it's almost as potent as the most potent pure synthetic opiates/opioids I've taken.

8-15mg with the needle is scary as hell. Last month I could barely even trust 10-20mg doses through insufflation with my 1mg-10g weighing scale but what I got I'm sure had some fentanyl in it. I've never been that cross eyed from an opiate. But I was taking benzos and stimulants in combination.

So as I said, You know you can do it. You have to fight it and it's not easy. Don't let suicidal thoughts get in the way of beating it. You can't go with the flow of those thoughts or they will kill you because it pretty much is a slow suicide. Nothing is as powerful as what people can set their minds to. It can get better.