Yes, dependency is to me a big part of what kept me in therapy.
Unfortunately, the way I had developed into adulthood, I was very independent but disconnected from my emotions, so I wasn't really socially, emotionally "there" in lots of ways. That affected my ability to function well, too.
The artificial "intimacy" and feeling like I was "there" socially and emotionally for the therapists was definitely a big draw for me. But I had no way to really understand how artificial and potentially damaging those relationships could be until, finally, I DID get connected with those cut-off emotions.
Going through h**l with gobs of therapists for decades is a pretty poor way to do that, though. Would it have happened eventually with time and normal life? Maybe. A lot of feelings came through only AFTER some of the people died. In one case, the DAY after.
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