Thanks Sky, Winterbaby, and Echoes for you insights.

Sky now that you mention it I am definitely feeling like I don't deserve her attention. I think that's what freaked me out the most when I started was having someone give me their undivided attention for an hour every two weeks. I think I've always felt like that with friends, teachers, coaches, etc. luckily I hide it well and don't seem overtly insecure.

I'm hoping I'll know when the time is right. Everything about therapy has just been so unexpected and different, I'm finding it hard to assume anything. I guess I'm wondering if she is sitting there waiting for be to figure out that I'm done.

Echoes, I really relate to the stress of needing a crisis to talk about for every session. I'm get anxious and want specific topics ready or goals in mind for each session. For me I also seem to only think stuff that relates directly to my kids or my relationship with my husband are worthy of discussion. I started therapy to help my kids and I feel weird talking about stuff that is about me only. Is anyone else like that? Is that like another screwed up defense mechanism or avoidance technique?

Now that I think about it, when I spoke about some issues from my past they only surfaced because she asked a direct question about something. I couldn't answer honestly without disclosing it.

Now that I wrote that I'm asking WHY am I like that? I don't feel guilty about buying myself clothes or getting my hair cut. Why do I feel bad about making my individual therapy about me and not about helping other family members??? I'm fricked up!