Didn't make it to the group at rehab today. Was crying too hard. I've been bawling my head off all day - only mananged to stop barely to go out to the pharmacy to pick up my meds.

Called my addictions Dr. today and asked if I could redo the IOP program - I feel like I need some structured, stable support to build up some sober time again. I see her next on Mon.

Also called my compounding pharmacy, found out I had an order on file for Antabuse, and so ordered it. Will hopefully have it by the weekend.

I'm just so sad.

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