I'm taking my meds as prescribed (aside from Wellbutrin, I quit that one all together). I haven't contacted my pdoc, I don't know why.
He's both a memory and a haunting. This makes the torment just that much more real and much more difficult to ignore.
I've lost faith in any light, dim or bright. I do force myself to say I believe it. Fake it 'til you make it, and all that.

I appreciate you all being here. I can't say this stuff anywhere else.