But you did mean to get caught up with a 19 year old. Nothing about this affair is accidental. She could have commented and you could have ignored her, but ding-ding-ding she's a young bored teenager alas the damsel in distress and you *only* want to keep her company. Does that not sound creepy to you? At 19 she's not a physically grown woman, and she's still a teenager. Do you have a therapist who can help you overcome these fantasies and start to pursue women your own age?