well, hey I guess. I guess you all know why I'm here, I was a bit nervous about this cause last time I tried one of these online support groups it, well it went quite badly. I'm sorry for being the most unforthcoming and generally guarded jerk, but I'm a little scared. I dont even know what to say, I'm trying not to waste your time but I tend to play my cards close to my chest. Apologies again.