I didn't really come on here to defend myself and I'm well aware of the age difference. To say that she is immature and it's an unbalanced relationship is making an assumption. It's true I have had a longer life but you know what even though she is nineteen she may have had more relationship experience than myself. I have not had a long term relationship ever and it eats at me eveyday. I don't really feel the need to wait around anymore for the right person, i.e., if opportunity knocks I don't really want to let it slip away. Although she's very young this is somebody who is real and in my life - not some same age fictional character some people are referring to. I can't manifest someone to be with who will meet everybody else's qualifications - I'm not Jesus. As for the age difference I'm sure there are other relationships with large age gaps out there. Are they creepy - I don't know. Are they happy - hope so. That said I haven't done anything yet. My biggest concern is not her age but the fact that she lives in an entirely different culture thousands of miles away. That means any future we might have would be very complicated. But I'm lonely and I hate throwing this away. If she lived two blocks away and showed the same interest I'd persue it - call me creepy but I have needs just like you. Peace

PS I've been in therapy for years and it ain't no substitute for having a real friend.