yeah, that 'll do to start wont it? when i look back, i have no idea how i juggled so many different trainwrecks in my life... i think i just never stopped to take a really good look, cause if i had, it would have overwhelmed in an instant... one of my defenses was dis-sociation.. in that mind frame, the human psyche can tolerate a lot of torture, but it comes back...

you're talking now, airing it out, establishing where you are...

i cant say i always enjoy hearing others stories, but it surprises me, when im in my lowest points, coming to PC and reading others experiences gives me a feeling of home... just to not feel alone felt like 1/2 the healing was done (which of course it wasnt) and it it felt good to be with others who could understand and cared, put themselves out on the limb in order to help... it re-established a small amount of faith in humanity for me...

if you stay awhile, i hopw you'll get some positive vibes going too.. just share, just be yourself, and if you can, relax...

i dont think many of us are really that big disappointment we imagine ourselves to be.. but we are deluded when we are ill... after some time, the light begins to shine again...